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无作者
Hey guys, it’s no longer human here today.We are rotting away.It’s currently 6:53.I had to order DoorDash so that I get the motivation to get up.Let’s go shower and de-must.
musty: adjective must → musty
smelling damp and unpleasant because of a lack of fresh air 有霉味的；发霉的 SYN dank
a musty room
有霉味的房间
I need to turn my light on.You guys can barely see me.I look like I just like I don’t know.I look like a [ __ ] scene kid.Kind of cool, but like is oily as [ __ ] so no.No can do.But yeah,it’s time to stop the rotting and it’s time to go shower and like de-must.There’s still more ants on my bed.Remember [clears throat] when I cleaned my room?Like literally today, like there’s more ants again.I’m like, “What am I doing wrong?” I literally cleaned everything,so I might just wash my [ __ ] sheets again and then set up more ant traps.Okay, let’s first get the sheets out.Low-key I little bit drooled threw up on my bed cuz I got [ __ ] wasted,trying to socialize with people.I cannot control my drinking when I’m socially anxious.I just keep drinking.Don’t do that, guys.That’s That’s That’s not healthy.
throw up = vomit
wasted = drunk
Okay, let’s take this down.After so many cleaning videos, you guys are like native to my laundry room.Hey yeah.Hey yeah.Yeah.This is some stuff I washed the other day that I never brought up.I have no idea what my mom is watching.She’s actually home early today.I slept most of the day to try to escape reality.Hey Zo.Say hi.I’m going to go shower now.You’re not going to miss me.Okay, took a shower.I put on some moisturizer and now I’m going to eat Dave’s Hot Chicken.[ __ ] I feel like a child bro.I’m going to give this to my mom cuz I do not drink soft drinks,but it [snorts] was like a deal.So then I was like, I mean I’ll I’ll take it,but like I’m not going to drink it, you know.I got medium spicy cuz I cannot handle hot.>> [snorts] >> I will go dry my hair later,but I’m going to watch some YouTube right now.My favorite channel right now is Bottega Cat.Like I’m telling y’all, I watch every single one of her videos.Every single one.And then I have to watch this new one.Yay!
Always wanted an older sister.So,that’s why like her videos are so comforting cuz she feels like an older sister.And yeah, I I wish someone could like little sister baby me.I’m sick of being hyper-independent.But anyways, this is the food.I’m going to I’m going to munch.Okay, I don’t know why the chicken’s so big,but then like my bun is like what is this proportion?Hello?My [snorts] chicken has an erection.Like, stop.What the [ __ ] Oh, my greasy ass hands.And then on my freaking mouse.I feel like a fat ass, but I treated myself.That’s what I tell myself.I say I’m treating myself,but I’m just like using this, as an excuse to be a fat ass, and ordering Dave’s Hot Chicken, every single [ __ ] day.Second burger, I mean second slider,time.I’m watching Wanny.Basically watching the Chinaverse and all its drama.Cuz there is no tea in my life,so I have to watch tea about other people’s lives.I would get the ick if a guy asked me, “What are you doing?” Wanny.
[laughter] >> Girl, I don’t think this is going to work.Okay, now I have to film a video with this PR package.Wish me luck, guys.And yes, I film everything on the TikTok app rather than like on my camera.Ooh, my hair looks weird.Um anyways,let’s film this [ __ ] I don’t even The thing is like I barely, do product reviews or like recommendations, cuz like, I always just use the same [ __ ] and I feel like too salesy, if I like try to like, be like,“Hey, here’s a product.” But,yeah.I I do like this brand a lot though.Please sponsor me.Please.Please.Please.This is the Flower Knows setting powder.I have not used their setting powders.I’ve used their pressed powders.>> [laughter] >> It’s in a little baggy.Okay.Maybe Am I supposed to put this in here?It’s like the set.Ah, that makes sense.This looks Wait.No, wait.I’m stupid.No.Wait.This is not right.No more no more chowa.This is um six-color satin eyeshadow palette from the unicorn, night unicorn collection.How to that stuff?Some face on Whoa.Whoa.
Whoa.Whoa.Whoa.Whoa there.Yo, this is so pretty.I keep saying that, but this this is actually like wow.Fashion center collection.Crack.Crack.Wah.Wah, I’m going to do a look with this.Wow, I already have a lot of the products here.I have pretty floral [ __ ] And then I just I just got more.I just added more to my collection.I think I would mainly just use the eyeshadow and the the setting powder.Everything else um the lip [ __ ] is like not particularly, my daily type of look,but yeah.I know a lot of people want me to do a YouTube, music I mean not music video makeup video,but I’m just doing these for your Tok right now.This is going to be the look we’re going to do today.Yes.>> [snorts] >> This is how the makeup is going so far.I look like an actual ghost, but um that is that is kind of the look.Yeah, and I’m listening to Ninja Nina.I don’t know why I keep thinking it’s Ninja.It’s Nina Chirashi.D-, Chirachi.Yes.Okay, I think the makeup is done.
I need to change into something to do like an after.I don’t even like making Tik Toks.I just do it cuz I don’t know.Got nothing better to do.Okay, this is the final look.Um do not mind the anime in the background.Yeah, this is ghost sick.If you guys are interested in watching with my friend.The awkwardest thing about making Tik Toks is trying to make thirst traps.I don’t I don’t know how to thirst trap.Like it’s not built into my bones.Like I’m not a rizzler.You know.Yeah, it just it it gets really cringe.So.Haha.Ha.Totally forgot to bring back the laundry, so let’s go do that.Down the scary basement we go.Everyone’s telling me Guys, I saw like the biggest spider ever.THERE WAS A SPIDER!THAT’S LIKE THIS BIG!It crawled over there.There!Yeah, it was near the Christmas tree.I don’t want to go down.Near the Christmas tree.That it was like really big.It looked like a tarantula.It’s like brown.Where could it be?Where could it be?Oh, I’m never going down here again.
It’s night time, so you know what that means.Time to take my medicine.Lexapro 20 mg.I stopped taking it for a while, so then they demoted me to like 10,but now I’m back on 20.But before, highest was 30.The other day, I went to a concert by myself.It was like a hyperpop concert that my mutual from Germany came to New York, to do a show up.And guess what?I got so socially anxious cuz I didn’t know anyone there.So then I just kept taking [ __ ] shots of tequila, and then I drank too much.But then there was also like a cute lesbian that was like flirting with me,and she got me a shot.I was like, “How can I refuse?” And I was like,“Okay,finally, I I For the longest time I thought, I didn’t look gay enough.” But, like I was like,“Okay, like maybe maybe the ladies do love me.” Okay,that’s like me like talking off my ass,but like it was a fun experience until I started throwing up.And then I missed my friend’s set because this girl and this guy,they sent me home.They’re like, “Yo,you okay?
You look like you’re tripping, bro.” And then yeah,I feel so bad.I should have I should not have drank like that.I have a bad problem when I’m in social events.Like I have like a a drink in my hand, and I’m just shaking,and I’m like to like ease the nerves.Um yeah, like my anxiety gets so bad,so then I think like alcohol would help, but like it just [ __ ] me up.But I do get more social, and I am a happy drunk.I’m not like a crash out drunk.Thank god.Thank god.Anyways, I didn’t finish filming my Tik Tok stuff,but [snorts] I don’t know.I just feel like I rotted the whole day.Like, what did I do?I just did my makeup.Yeah.Wow.I didn’t do anything else.[laughter] Time to take some awkward thirst traps.She’s like, “What the hell is you doing,girl?” Hey guys, I just took some thirst traps.I’m not good at actually like camera movement.Like,whenever the musically thing was like still a thing back when I was younger,um I could not do that.And I feel like that also translates to Tik Tok.
I’m just not a transition person.I I can’t do really any movements.I’m really stiff.Oh, hi Sola.Hello.Um she’s not going to jump out the window.She’s just She’s just looking outside and catching some fresh air.Right?Yeah, she is.Um my friend from Japan, she messaged me.She was like, “Um my friend thinks you’re cute.” Mind you,she tried to set me up with her other friend before,but then I felt like the vibes were just like kind of like not there.But I went on a blind date.Like, the person was like really nice,but like I felt like like like both of us are like two black cats.Like, I feel like we need some like other energy there.You know what I mean?Like, I feel like I like more golden retriever.Yeah.But yeah, um anyways,yeah, she she just tried to set me up with another person.I’m like, “Please,can you like find me a girl instead?I I don’t want to talk to no men.” I love her,but like >> [snorts] >> it’s just funny to me cuz like I don’t know.My love life is just [ __ ].
It’s [ __ ] I literally have a crush on someone who’s unattainable.Yeah, but it’s it is what it is.I’m a yearner at heart.Like I’m like born to love,but like I’m like forced to detach cuz everyone’s just like a hoe these days.My mind is just like preoccupied, but it’s whatever.I’ll get over it.I’ll get over it.I always get over it, right?Right?Like if you like me,be very very very nice and sweet to me and I’ll fall for you.If you don’t like me, don’t be nice to me at all.Just don’t.I feel like a chad.I feel like I should be doing something.I should be editing.I don’t know.I don’t know.I need to edit and then wake up tomorrow.I have like a meeting tomorrow, and then Oh [ __ ] I also have to wake up early cuz my doctor.>> [snorts] >> Yeah, I I asked her for a TMS referral and I called them,but they kind of like didn’t reply.So, yeah.It’s like “Hi Eutress, but I’m not doing any therapy.Just raw dogging meds.” What if I do like the ketamine microdose therapy?That That’s also a thing.
There’s a lot of unconventional ways of, therapy and medication if the traditional means has not worked for you.And I might be looking into them because >> [sighs] >> man,I’ve been depressed for 10 plus years.Holy [ __ ] And it developed into BPD.It’s cooked.Guys,I did a short YouTube live and then someone called me an egotistical, [ __ ] cuz I didn’t reply to their boring comment.So, then I ended the live.>> [laughter] >> Oh bro, I don’t even know what I’m going to do now.I wanted to sing a little bit.Um I don’t know.I feel kind of sad,but I also feel like I should just edit on my phone, cuz I should post makeup real stuff tomorrow.Yeah, this is kind of a day in the life.It’s very freaking boring, bro.I was just like talking to the live.I was just saying like though we’re almost at 100k,I just feel like such an imposter.Like I don’t deserve any of it and it’s just I just feel like, nothing will ever be enough.I won’t ever be enough for anyone, especially myself.And.
it’s just like this feeling like, this feeling just gets higher, and higher and like [ __ ] syphilis.No, Sisyphus.[ __ ] I don’t know why I keep saying the [ __ ] STD.No, I’m not I’m not Sisyphus.I mean Sisyphus Sisyphus >> [laughter] >> Sisyphus.Silly.You know what?I’m just going to stop talking.I What the hell?This is why I should ship myself back to China.Well, my mom said she was she she she could ship me back back to China.So then, I could learn a skill or something and make some, money cuz YouTube does not really pay [ __ ] but, haha,that’s just the reality of things unless I get sponsorships,but I’m not a brand friendly channel in particular,I’d say cuz it’s all about mental health.So Better Help, please sponsor me if you ever see this.I reached out to y’all, but y’all didn’t reply.I mean like I I I I I don’t hold it against you, but like [ __ ] Anyways,yeah, that’s that’s just like some side tangent.Do you scrolling on Twitter Twitter cuz I hate myself.
Oh wait, I remember what song I wanted to sing.Uh Wait, should I sing it for you guys?I can sing it for you guys.Okay, wait.>> [clears throat] >> I’m going to do a little cover.I’m getting my ass, and I’m going to [ __ ] sing cuz I feel like [ __ ] [ __ ] cuz, >> [snorts] >> cuz I’m [ __ ], I’m going to turn the lights off cuz vibes.Vibes.Sad vibes, if you feel.I should be working on my other [ __ ] song,the one that’s actually the project I’m working [ __ ] working on, but no,like cuz I’m a [ __ ] procrastinator.I never do [ __ ] in order.Someone needs to like [ __ ], strap me to like my [ __ ] chair, and force me to sing,force me to work on my project.This is why I hate myself.Wait, when I exported this,this did not sound this good.I am [ __ ] gagged.Did I cook?I’ll show you guys a little bit without the instrumental.>> [singing] [singing] >> Anyways, that is it for the vlog.I don’t really have anything else to do besides editing, going to sleep.Um yeah.Oh.That jump scared me.
Get the [ __ ] out of here.Yeah, thank you guys for watching my rotting vlog.Um, I tried to not completely rot,but it it’s it’s kind of rotting.Yeah.Day in the life complete.Say bye-bye, Sola.Bye-bye.Oh.Wow.She a hunter.
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